he knows... to be honest I don't think he knows what to do... was going well until I was honest with him and then it all went wrong.. which is seriously not what's meant happen I'm sure...

as soon as he realises what tomorrow is (10 year aneversary of my brothers death) he'll just get obsessed with that anyway... despite the fact that it all happened in the part of my life that I can berely remember...

nothing ever goes right
no.. in fact I lie... the universe is more clever than that... gives the impression of things going right and positive events... and then pulls it all away, causing the world to crumble and fall around you

i'll shut up now I think...