I have been so unmotivated, easily irritable, and feeling like "What's the point?" to everything. It's like there isn't any real lasting feeling of contentment or motivation to make my situation better. I can and do enjoy things like tv shows but once the stimulus is removed, I go back to feeling blah and lifeless.
I do have a family history of Schizophrenia and Bipolar disorder and in my own personal past I am an adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse at the hands of adoptive parent. This was over 20 years ago.

I don't feel like ending my life or anything but I just cannot seem to find any lasting joy or appreciation for life.

I have experienced episodes of profound feelings of sadness that usually last about a week or so. I don't know what brings me out of it and when it does lift, I go from sad to just blah.
Once upon a time I used to excited about new endeavors. I would through myself headlong into a new project until I felt I knew all I wanted to know about it and then look for something new to latch on to. But lately, nothing interests me all that much.

Thoughts?