Hi Sabra

Thank you for the response.

I am wondering if you could explain a bit more about the problem with antidepressants and positivity?
I am suspecting that they are most of the problem, because what I am seeing is very grandiose behavior in her. She just seems so untouched by anything and it is chilling. I would really like to believe that this is from the effect of the medication and not just who she really is once she is feeling better.
It is too painful to think that once she is feeling good about herself that she found me too troublesome with all of my challenges. Or worse, that I was one of the negative energy suckers that we hear about so often of in the self help books. You know, the people we are supposed to clean out of our life because they are stuck in their own misery and are a threat to our health and happiness.
How heart breaking to think I am possibly being viewed as such.

Anyways, any thoughts opinions or personal experiences would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you for the opportunity to express my fears and hurts. I had forgotten what a great release writing is for me. And getting feed back and support is already helping.

Thank you