I can imagine how alone you must feel with these feelings of wanting to hurt yourself. It must have been devistating to reach out for help only to be attacked by other chatters.
I hope you realize that their behavior is not a reflection of you and in fact has nothing to do with you.
I'm wandering what support you have for this.
Friends you can talk to?
Family to talk to?
Counsellor who can listen and give support?

Also I am wondering what have you been doing to get yourself through this so far? What things have helped to distract you in the darkest moments?

Please keep posting and know that you are not alone.