Hi Josephine. I spent enough years living with depression that I developed a persona that allowed me function around people with it. I learned how to pretend to care. If you let your apathy show no one wants you around. They're attitude is: "We all have problems; just get over it". But if you keep that up long enough you can't tell when you're feeling something and when you're pretending to feel something.

So I guess my advice is don't do what I did. Your emotions are in there. Find a way to be with them. Feeling anything is better than feeling nothing. Mindfulness and loving-kindness meditations and readings on self-compassion have helped me.