I do. Although the severity of it is lessening from years of therapy, it still lingers.

I don't talk about it much because people don't understand. They think you're just hung up on your looks and being vain. I remember once my friends were here and we were hanging out at the pool. I got ready just like i would if i was going out for the day. Put on my make up, did my hair. They were giving me a hard time, joking around saying "what do you think, you're Elizabeth Taylor?"

Truth is, I felt ugly without it and I figured make-up would make me look less hideous.

It's complicated isn't it. How can people see you one way and you so not see that.
So I keep quiet.

I avoid mirrors unless I'm putting on my make-up and then I only concentrate at one thing at a time. I never step back and take in the whole picture.

One of my assignments from T recently was to get feed back from people.

I sent some of my friends here at PC a picture of me with no real explanation as to why I would send them one.

I think I only told one person it was because I had BDD. I brought their reactions into T, who of course pointed out that they all said the same thing.

"Don't you believe them?" she asked.

It's not that I don't, it's more like "How can you NOT see it?"