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Originally Posted by olive98
my question is why does wearing less clothes make me feel nice around men? it feels nice when my boss sees me in a short skirt. he has seen my underwear when i was on his couch and it felt nice for me. at the beach its fun talking to guys with my smallest bikini but why? makes no sense to me why its so addictive to wear less clothes! i never felt this way until i turned 14 last year. seems wrong because a man might think i want to sleep with him  |
I think you may know the answer yourself. Correct me if I'm not that you are the same girl that allows older men to touch you/you touch them, then you know it's because of the abuse that you've been through in your life.
You need constant attention, whether it's from not getting attention from your parents or from being manipulated for so long. There is a part of you that is missing that your try to fill with the affections of older men.
Have you been seeing a counselor about this? It could really benefit you from being seen, preferably by a female counselor.