I don't know if it's much brighter, maybe "seeing the light" was a poor choice of words. To be honest I go back and forth. I still miss him because I always knew I had a person to text whenever, or to go out with whenever, and I don't have that now. But he did things that upset me and I knew that he didn't really care if the things that he did upset me. He didn't set out to upset me intentionally, and he wasn't ever mean to me, he just wasn't careful with my feelings.

How do I feel. I feel like I still have one leg tethered to this person because I both miss him and feel a weird sense of outrage towards him, but that I want to break free because I know that I wasted my time with the friendship, with someone who was careless with my feelings, and who doesn't care that I'm gone. I just want to be over it, but we were enmeshed in each other's lives for seven years. I'm not good at getting over things. I'm just good at getting mad at things. So...yeah. That's how I feel, I guess.