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Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry that you're feeling down and kind of lost. I'm an introvert as well, so I can relate to a lot of what you said. What kind of work are you doing part-time? Do you enjoy that at all?

I went to community college when I was older - I think I was 26 yrs old when I started. As a result, I had a completely different attitude about school than most of the younger students. I took classes that I enjoyed because I had no idea where I was going, I didn't have a plan to go on to a 4-year school. That really helped me! I fell in love with Psychology that way & then decided to go further, and had to take all of the general education classes to transfer. It worked well for me. I don't regret waiting at all ~ that was the right decision for me at that time in my life.

The self-harm isn't healthy, I assume that you know that. Do you have any medical insurance through your mom or your job? I do think that it would be a good idea to see a T. Not necessarily go into the hospital, unless you're considering suicide. Just seeing a T ~ and talking about what you've brought up here could really help you feel better. I see a T regularly, to help me put my thoughts, feelings, and experiences into perspective. Otherwise, I feel rather overwhelmed by life which makes my situation feel worse than it really is.

Gentle hugs to you. Please take care of yourself & whenever that desire to cut pops into your head, try to push it back out again.