Post 51 I called the suicide hotline... might call again... I been drinking.. my uncle james is about to die and I'm heading to tn...... I been drinking the last 3 or 4 hours on my 2nd bottle of whisky. ... I got this girl interested in me... I can't live my life like this. If my uncle james dies then I'm headed to tn.... after the funeral and such I'm going to mental health. .... instead of driving my life away I'm drinking it away..... sigh I need help... from my ex and from my dad.... I wish someone could understand me like cathy did...