Thank you blue eyes youre really being kind to me replying so fast.I am 30yrs old but i am in college studying law (just started in september)so i will enqiure about some from there.Also my ex's sister whom i am very close too still,is a councellor but i am a little aprehensive about telling her ALL my problems although i did call her a few nights ago when i was feeling suicidal and she helped.