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Originally Posted by Leed
Hi my friend ~ Your home life as a child sounds JUST like mine. I was totally neglected too. Completely. And I was depressed as a very small child, and it never left me.
Both my parents were alcoholics, so it was chaos in my home. I isolated in my bedroom after I got home from school. That's where I stayed. 
I did get married, but he turned out to be controlling, mentally/emotionally abusive -- and i was scared of him. I stayed for 26 years til both my kids were grown cause he threatened to take them away from me if I left. He would have too. After the youngest was 18, I divorced the bum.
I know what loneliness is my friend. All my friends dumped me cause my ex told them all kinds of lies saying I cheated on him, etc. How could I when he wouldn't let me leave the house? But, they believed him, so oh well. They didn't bother asking me.
Unfortunately we can't choose our families, but we CAN choose our friends. Have you tried making new friends? I know it's hard. It's difficult when you're depressed.
Are you on an antidepressant? Have you talked with your doctor about how you feel? If you ARE on an antidepressant and it's not working, ask your doctor to change it.
If you don't want medications, try therapy. Have you been in therapy? It really does work! I've been thru therapy and it really helped. You doctor can help you get into therapy.
If you want to get better, you must do something about it. Talk to your doctor!! He WILL help you! God bless and please take care. And let me know how things turn out, okay? Hugs, Lee  |
Hi Leed,
I'm so sorry that your Husband was such an Asshole!
My Father did the same thing to my Mother with me as the pawn!
I was an only child.
To answer your question yes I'm on an antidepressant Lamotrigne and I'm on Clonazapham or Clonazapam I always get the spelling wrong these medications always trip me up because they are so many syllables.
And yes I have been in therapy. In the past a lot of them just wanted a steady patient & weren't really helping in treating me so I had to fire them.
The last one kept falling asleep or when she wasn't doing that she turned more social worker than psychologist, her energies seem scattered.
To be fair she did have a cantankerous young one at home, I would call her sometimes at her ONLY number and often the kid would be real demanding & I mean demanding of her Mothers time. That made me feel uncomfortable.
I have found a new one, because I deal with a lot of issues across the board including racism Washington State is pretty bad on that.
But although he will work with me his first opening isn't until next month.
One thing you need know about me I don't believe in just sitting around the house hoping for a miracle...Nope that ain't my style.
I work my Butt off trying to make things better.
Unfortunately I have a lot more obstacles I feel more so than the average person and I deal with isolation.
Here in Washington Seattle in particular it just is not easy making friends here UNLESS you know someone who knows someone who can vouch for you.
It is REAL clicque-ish here and if your a new face then guess what? Your treated worst than if your the new kid the first day of school! If you don't believe me Google up "Seattle Freeze" there are actual newspaper articles on it.
I try & try but I can't control insecure,jealous folks determined to just lock you out.
I keep hoping I'll get lucky but I just give up.
I'm trying to figure out how to study abroad out of the U.S.
My late Aunt moved overseas and she loved it!!
I sure wished that she were alive today, cause she was the ONLY one that I felt a kindred spirit with.
That's it for now.
If you want send me a friend request.
I'll accept.
Have a nice day.
Hope you have sun where you live.
Where I'm at there isn't