Hello,
I have lived for 35 yrs in a marriage that has surived loss of a son due to illness, an abusive spouse due to drinking for 18 yrs , still have a daughter that our relationship is slim. My spouse has asked for my forgiveness in his abuse, other affairs, drinking , yrs ago. We have in the past separated but he managed to talk his way back to me. That has stopped yrs ago . He is ill with heart problems and other illness but continues to work. The abuse and other problems stop when our son died. He asked for my forgiveness and is a good supporter. We did go for help quite a few times. But, I still in the back of my mind wish I had the courage to end this marriage. I guess I will say that till I die.
But, he tries to please me but sometimes his words can be macho and when I lecture him now about issues he is like a child. He does listen to me now. My mother says it is too late he will never leave me. He says he loves me which he never did before. We are going strong now and have been for a time now. But I can't help these feelings.
cathy56