Thanks for the support. I've known for a while now that I need to do that but I am so worried about being looked at as weird or somehow wrong by my GP. It is so not easy to tell someone whom I barely know (don't go the the GP much) such personal information.When I was a kid and dealing with the sex abuse stuff, social workers and others would give me this feeling of being different but not in a good way. I learned very quickly to put up a front that everything was ok in order to avoid feeling like people where looking at me as weird or thought that I was a source of pity. I do that a lot with people as it takes a lot to earn my trust enough to confide such things. Unfortunately, my insurance plan is such that I would have to get a referral from the GP before seeing a specialist or therapist of any kind.

I did make a request to be a part of a local depression study run by a noted psychiatrist. The study info stated that if accepted, the participant will receive a diagnosis along with being included in the study group. As the study is actively seeking people with depression, I won't feel so weird talking to the docs. They'll already know why I'm there!
Wish me luck.