I have a secondary job interview today, since being fired from my last job for mental health reasons. The first interview was difficult enough, but since a background check has been or is being done this time, I can't help but feel like I'm going to meet my doom when I walk into the place, because I'm worried--I know how cruel people can be, and I can't deal with that kind of guilt; the guilt of not being healthy or good enough, and being scrutinized for the fact... I can't cope as it is, and I don't want to be openly humiliated.

I have reasons for my weaknesses, and my mistakes, and I shouldn't have to explain myself or apologize for my existence. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this kind of stress.