I have too much on my plate right now. I need to find an apartment, get medical test results back tomorrow and go to my late fiances best friends memorial service. All by tomorrow. I know what to do to stay sober, it is just the question of if I can the next two days. I am trying to live life on life's trems but it is getting to me and i keep having thoughts of, "maybe i can just use once" and in reality, I know I cannot. I need all the prayers i can get right now, and am asking for help.. Something I have never been good at. I pray I stay clean through this stress...