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Originally Posted by Speed3
As many of you know I have been extremely depressed and suicidal.
Well, my PDOC has finally come on board. He knows it is hard for me to leave the house so we have been talking on the phone.
We talked yesterday and decided on 4 ECT treatments inpatient.
These would be done in my insurance network at a prestigious teaching hospital in Philadelphia, which is a half hour away.
A few days ago I asked my husband if he remembered if the ECTs I had in the past helped. He said yes, especially in the beginning.
Yesterday after I talked to my PDOC, I told him the plan.
Well, he went into a rage. He says to me you don't listen to me or understand. You are not depressed you are lazy and need to get off your a..sss. No way are you going in the hospital or having ECT.
He can be very spiteful and mean when I go against what he says.
I just want to break out of this horrid depression. But if he isn't behind me it could be very very very difficult!
Just need some advice
What he doesn't know is I have 400 mg of Ativan. I refused to continue living like this.
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Hello Speed3: I would like to suggest that what your husband said to you, under the circumstances, constitutes verbal abuse. Obviously, I don't know anything about your relationship as a whole, but if this is an indication of how your relationship is as a whole, I would suggest that this may be a contributing factor to your depression.
As we all know, depression is an illness & it needs to be treated. You have to take care of yourself first. So, if you've hit bottom, in terms of your depression, I think you need to "damn the torpedos, full speed ahead" with the ECT!
I must say that I've never had ECT, although it has been suggested to me. Sometimes I think I should. My wife would be upset if I told her I was going to do this. But she wouldn't tell me I was lazy & should get up off my ***! She'd just be concerned for my welfare.
Is it possible for your doctor to talk with your husband? I'm sure you've thought of that. It sounds as though your husband needs some educating with regard to major depression. But it sounds like you've been dealing with this for some time. So I presume he has had plenty of opportunity.
Anyway, the way it sounds to me from your post, I would say get yourself into the hospital & have the ECT treatments, hopefully on an in-patient basis. If your husband won't support you in this, perhaps you have a friend or relative who can assist. You're absolutely right to do what you need to do to get out in front of this before it overwhelms you! Please take action!
