I understand all of this and feel tired just like you.
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Originally Posted by wadingthruemotions
I am angry at myself. I am angry at those who have pushed me to this level of craziness. I wish I had more of a normal upbringing, but nooooooo. I had to have a dysfunctional to the Nth degree family, more than that really, evil is what they are/were. Some are gone now and I am happy about that. Then I feel bad cause I feel happy about that. GRRRR
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I definitely understand this part. I wish that I'd had a normal family as well and I often wonder what my life would have been like if I'd had a normal upbringing. My half-sisters did, and they are normal i.e. they don't deal with any psych issues. They lead normal lives surrounded by two parents and lots of family and friends for support. I have to admit that sometimes I'm very jealous and hurt that I got the raw deal and they got what I should have gotten.
I'm sorry you are feeling this way and I wish I had something to say to make things better but just know that there are people here who definitely understand.
