when iwas younger there was a boy who was bigger than me althoughwe where both around 9-10 yrs,he got me on my own and made me do things to him iand did things to me.this had haunted me to adult life and as such when i became an adult being with my straight friends,we whent to a gay club on occations with the girls,only i found myself in toilets with men on a couple of occations dong things although never sex,i deeply regretted these things and hate myself for them still as i am not gay and have not done this kind of thing for ove rten years or more