I feel the same way a lot. I think the only thing that keeps me going is that i have to work to pay rent and buy food, and I have a wife I don't want to lose. Without those things I don't think I would get out of bed. I would just give up. I hope you can find something to fight depression for. I hope you find some relief soon. I am here if you want someone to talk to or vent. I find that helps me to have someone to talk to that isn't judgmental and is supportive.