I'm actually making a positive post. Is this really happening?

Anyway, yeah, I'm not going to let others define me anymore. I'm gonna do my own thing and not worry about whether he cares about me or she wants to be my friend or they like me or she's just lying to me or whatever. If they want to be in my life then they will be, and I'll be here waiting, but I'll be okay either way and I'm not going to be the one making all the effort anymore. I'll give 50% only if they give me 50%.

This is just what I'm telling myself. I'm trying to hold onto this. Maybe it'll help me. Maybe if I pretend I'm okay for long enough I'll actually be okay.