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Originally Posted by WetheKings
I could really use some help, for the saddest tears are the ones sobbed into the bend of your own arm. I have grown far too talented at silent weeping. I am at a loss as to what I am supposed to do from here, and I can feel Death creeping behind my shoulder. His cold touch is so close to my flesh, and I am so close to inviting him to bring me to his own realm.
I'm not contemplating suicide. Please don't think that this is what this is. I am just out of ideas, and I am so tired of being so constantly sad.
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I understand. I am not far from where you are now. I can see it clear as day and can't seem to do anything but let it come and wash over me.
I wish I could help, say something to lift your spirits even just a little bit. I feel bad that I cannot. I am sorry.
It isn't so much sadness (it is that but) as it is this constant fight that I feel I can no longer put forth.
I cried once about a week or so ago for the first time in a very long time (like 2 years). I had hoped that once I found my tears again that I would feel a bit of a relief and that it would help wash my feelings out. It used to always help a little bit. but afterwards I felt nothing even close to that. I felt like I could cry a million tears and they wouldn't make a difference.
i will listen if you need it. I am good at that so I am told. Sometimes it does help to not think of your own troubles and just listen. 
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"Death is easy, peaceful: Life is harder"
"The Day You Turned On Me Is The Day I Died,
And I've Forgotten What It's Like,
And How It Feels To Be Alive" (Daughtry-Gone)
"And you always want what you're running from. It's always been that way." Bittersweet Lyrics by Ellie Goulding
"The reason I hold on, cause I need this hole gone." (Stay by Rihanna)
"The opposite of love's indifference." (Stubborn Love, The Lumineers)
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