Dear T,

I hope you are having a nice time off... I dont know what you are doing or where you are but I guess that's irrelevant as this entire relationship, or whatever it is, is completely one-sided. But I still hope it's going well for you....

As for me? It's kinda painful, T. I think you overestimated my ability to cope or I've hidden myself so well you really are fooled like everyone else. I hope not, but either way it still seems I'm still alone.

You said my fear appears to be more about abandonment and I'm sure you are right on some level. But now I feel more like a specimen that you observe rather than someone you care about, even a little bit. I hope Im wrong T, but I guess I won't find out until next week...