Auuuurgh! I can't win.

I feel so fat all the time. I don't want to eat but I'm always hungry. I only lasted a week before I binged and purged again.

I started to be hopeful a few weeks ago that maybe one day I would like the way I look, but that all went down the tubes when I measured myself today and looked at myself in a bathing suit.

Not only are my stomach and thighs still fat, but now I'm losing my chest, which I actually sort of liked.

Now I just look like a chubby twelve year old.