Hello, HealingTimes, and thank you for the thread. I believe that the things in the past that were reasons for being depressed are the things that you probably need to get out into the open with a private consultation with a psychiatrist.

Until we remove the unpleasant thoughts from our minds, they can still be effective
in causing us psychic pain. A good conversation and maybe a little medication
for a few months might help you to put behind you all the things that come up in
your thoughts that are bothersome to your feeling tone.

They do affect us that way, and there is so much that can be done to help relieve
that tension.

Please go in for a consultation with a psychiatrist and follow his/her advice about how to get yourself in a better feeling state.

Best wishes.