I've not experienced this either but I just wanted you to know I am listening and care. T and I take the approach that we are all me but the barriers in the brain can be a very confusing thing and often different parts of the brain are apparently just as confused as mine.

You are doing great to be able to stay present while T explains. My t doesn't say a lot about when she talks to me unaware as it often tips me over so that I lose more time. I'm so glad you have a T that you are comfortable with. Stick close to her and she will help you through this maze. I'm so sorry you are struggling and I hope you can find peace soon.