It all started when I got word my parents were coming home from being out of town. I'm afraid of my dad and it seems that everything I touch I destroy; like his car, his computer, and now I have to ask him to bail me out of a financial bind when i know he's been spending bucks elsewhere, shoot. Maybe I need a payee, I've spent thounds of dollars to banks for fines and fees and my thereaphist pointed out that I spend 1% on myself, the rest are gifts. Yes I think my self-esteem is out of wack, not to mention that I hate my life right now.

I need a chg and I think this is why I'm sick, it's fear based.