So I'm just going to summarize everything that's going on because I feel like I can't tell anyone in my life the whole story. So in early March I ended my relationship with my boyfriend of almost 3 years. We were growing apart and also I found myself looking at him as a friend rather a boyfriend. This was a long time coming because I started feeling this way in the summer of 2012. So after it happened I was upset, but also relieved. While I was in that relationship I developed a crush for my cousin's husband's best friend. We met a year ago at my cousin's wedding, but really did not talk to each other much in fact we really didn't know each other existed until the following New Years Eve when we both attend a party at my cousin's house. We discovered we were going to be the God parents for my cousin and her husbands child when they eventually decide to get pregnant. So we joked around about it and started flirting, but nothing serious. Let me say this now because it becomes an issue as this progresses..I am about to turn 19 years old and in college; he is about to turn 29. I know it seems like a big deal, but I'm very mature in my opinion. I'm not the type of girl that goes crazy and parties and drinks. I work hard in school and hold two jobs and feel very independent. He agrees with how mature I am and he also is very independent and has a good head on his shoulders. So anyway.. One day he started talking to me on Facebook and we ended up talking for hours! From then on we talked everyday on Facebook and eventually he brought up how we had a crush on each other. We laughed about it, but then we both admitted that we were actually starting to like each other. We eventually exchanged numbers and then starting texting each other all the time. It was getting to a point where we knew we wanted it to go somewhere, but no one else knew it was happening so we felt we needed to tell my cousin and her husband. We were so worried about what they would think and both of us are the type of person that can not handle if we upset someone. Well after much planning he told my cousin's husband and I told my cousin at the same time, but in separate place. They both did not take it that well. They issued their concerns like they think we are at different places in our lives and it could destroy my family. They always finished with I don't think its a good idea, but you are both adults. So we both became stressed out because they did not approve and we were afraid we were causing them stress. I ended up telling my mom and she was surprisingly very supportive at first! I was so excited I told my cousin, but she still didn't seem to think it was okay. So the guy I was talking to and I continued to talk, sometimes stressing about it, but also saying things like I'm crazy about you and don't want to be with anyone else. One day he even told me you is going to follow his heart and that is me. All this gave me so much confidence and hope for our future even though some people objected to it. As the up and downs continued we both agreed to finally meet in person alone to talk about everything that was happening. We met up for coffee and had a great time together! We talked about everything and were both very hopeful that it would all work out and agreed that we would take things VERY SLOW to prove to everyone that things would be okay and that we aren't rushing, but at the same time we both admitted that we really cared about each other and liked each other. So when we finished he walked me to my car, pulled me in for a hug, and then kept me there and kissed me. I wasn't expecting it at all and then he said something after and he kissed me again. I left that place so happy and knew I loved him and wanted to be with him. The next day everything was going great we texted each other like normal and he seemed fine. Then he asked me to call him.. He answers like I have some bad news..He told me he talked to his best friend and his dad about it and they were both just very blunt and were like no. He said their main reason that hit him the most was if something were to go wrong it would affect my cousin and her husband and my family because we are both a permanent part of their lives. He really wanted to keep me in his life and asked for me to still be friends because he still wanted to talk to me. I tried not to sound too upset on the phone and said of course. What hurt the most was him just constantly asking if i was okay or if I was mad and then when I asked him he said he was fine and acted like nothing was wrong and that he wasn't upset. He even said, " You're a beautiful girl and you'll find someone". And I was just feeling like really?? Just yesterday you kissed me and told me you wanted to be with me. I can't tell if he really feels this way or if he still loves me, but is trying to stay strong and show he's okay so that way I get over him. Either way I'm stuck. We text every once in a while very short and stupid convos. I still love him and was trying so hard to get over him and think it was good we'll be friends and everything, but it hurts so much that he could of possibly gotten over me that quickly after how much we cared about each other. I don't want to give up hope and when we were together we talked about how we would wait for each other and how everything will work out in the end. I just don;t know now if he feels the same way. I just don't know how he is feeling. He told me I could tell him anything and always come to him, but I don't want to ruin anything we still have and if he really is over me I don't want to push him away or make it awkward for my cousins. We were both really passionate when we told each other we liked each other and cared and he's not the type of guy that would just say that in the moment and not mean it so that's why I am just confused. I want to tell him how I'm feeling. but I'm just too afraid he won't feel the same way or he might and say there's nothing we can do about ti because how it will affect everyone else. I need help. I feel sick everyday and don't know what to do.