I doubt there's a covert message here, newtus. If I see someone who resembles me on a couple of parameters - a middle-aged white woman, for example - doing something horrible, I don't assume it's a message to me to act the same way. But if there is a covert message, maybe it's telling you to take care of your mental health so you don't act out in destructive ways, small or large.
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That doesn't sound wholesome. Why don't you find something to do with your time that doesn't reinforce negative thoughts and feelings?