Gen... she knows, has known from a young age, that I'm not cookie cutter mother material She did pick up on it pretty young and as soon as she was able to verbalise properly (as we talk at great lengths about our relationship dynamics) she expressed to me that she doesn't mind that I'm not like her friend's mothers and also doesn't mind that I'm a bit nuts She says she knows I do my best and that I love her...

In that talk I did however tell her to point out if she thought I was lacking in certain areas, which she has. So really she is the actual reason I have gotten better at it.

Guess my beef is just that she deserves better you know? I had a somewhat emotionally distant mother, but she kicks a.s.s at caring for and nurturing, and yet I didn't develop any of that or learn from her behavior.

So I guess that amounts to guilt? I know better, was taught better, but am not measuring up, so am infact robbing my daughter...