Thanks guys its appreciated.
I told my mom I think I'm exhausted on all fronts and that may be why I want to run away from being an adult. She told me to check how much leave I have due and take a few days break...

I just feel so impulsive and kinda "who cares" now regarding my job. And that is BAD... gotta put on my game face for Jordan, she's counting on me...

Guess I really struggle with feeling inadaquate because I see my mom, my sisters, niece, peers and all I see is how motherhood fits. Its not a costume they have to put on and a role they need to assume... Another thing I should be working on no.

Thanks again for the input and giving me some perspective