BTW. My sudden aversion to work is completely separate from my motherhood issues. I just don't want to / can't deal with work. That's the tantrum part of my post. I want to throw my job out of the cot, and I don't even know why My decision making skills are not very good when I'm in such a stubborn beliggerent mood

I MUST decide / choose to go to work tomorrow. I know I must, but I still have not set my alarm... See? I'm rebelling for no reason or waiting for the light to fricken go on or something to click! IDK