thanks for your kind words _zh.

Sounds like you had a great "Ah-Ha!" moment too. That's wonderful!! .... and what an important thing to realize: "not everyone resents themselves "

funny how I seem to feel on edge now....kind of nervous and yet relieved at the same time. Like finding the forbidden cookie jar when one is literally starving...... maybe the revelation is something I wasn't supposed to find, but it's something I really needed.-- if that makes sense...

think I will heed your advice-- and take it easy for a bit.

Thank you
mandy