Solepa -
I am afraid of that too, in a way. I told T several times at our first appointment that I CANNOT stop functioning. I was like, "Im still functioning now, T, and I just cannot stop doing so for my family's sake!"

So yeah - I still am holding back so much because I have to make it. I told him its the only way I know how to survive. Still maybe I have to be willing to deal with whatever the outcome is and quit controlling it? I dunno....so yeah, I wonder the same as you. It is scary...