Oh, dear Coco, I sure feel your pain. This is a big deal but as others have said, you are the same person you were before you got this diagnosis. This is exactly what my therapist said to me. When I protested that the meds change who I am she responded that we will tweak them until it's right. She made a change to them that very day.

Be proactive in your care. A year ago I had bad care and said screw it. Now it's much better. I shouldn't have given up so easy.

Some suggestions........

Have patience with yourself
Be realistic but not fatalistic
Don't cling tightly to your emotions, be gentle instead.
Let the people who love you know if you struggle but reward their efforts by reassuring them that you are working as hard as you can to stay well.

One day at a time. One foot after the other. Don't look back for too long and don't look too far forward.
Live in the moment and love yourself.
Take good care of yourself. Get plenty of rest.

I am no expert. I am right where you are. We can do this, and like all burdens, this too will make us stronger in some way.