You all were so helpful with your advice and yeah my family is a bit crazy and involved in each others' lives. I just don't even think they realize that they considered themselves more instead of us, which hurt me at least. As for my goals before I met him.. my goal was to be successful in school and have a fun life you know like go to the city and paint in the park; small things that are enjoyable when you live in the moment. Right now I'm on the brink of either telling him how I feel or just trying to get over him. Something inside of me though is trying to keep me hoping and I don't know if I should follow that or not. I just wish he came to me or told me how he was feeling after all this. I think he was just trying to pretend like he was okay to help me, but all it did was make me feel worse. I do greatly appreciate all the time you took to read this and help me. Very inspirational.