Mostly because ED getting out of control, but I've also been acting really weird lately. My mood swings are getting worse. I've gotten more aggressive, though not really violent. Just angry. Then psychotically happy and hyper. Then depressed, feel the need to be self-destructive despite meds. My school work is suffering and no matter how hard I try, I can't make it better. I have a long-distance relationship with my boyfriend of 4 years and I feel like we're starting to get strained because if I have no one else to talk to about my feelings then I talk to him. I don't want to scare him again with another suicidal or self-destructive call.

I really don't want to have to eat up months of my life at a hospital. But I want to get better. What do I do?