I know how you feel. I don't know if this can be of help to you, but I feel like I'm going through the same thing.

I own and lived at my condo for 13 years and liked it. I also feel attached to it. And now I'm making a heartbreaking decision to sell the place. I want to sell because I want to get out as soon as possible. The place and the area is very nice, but the people are not.

At night, like around 8, I like to go to the pool area and relax in the hot tub. I feel like I am alone and lonely and I go there hoping to meet some nice people. It just doesn't happen. In fact, all I see are just couples that are so much in love. And they just totally ignore me. They act like they don't want me there. Well, I have to be in agreement on that because I don't want them there either! And now lately, there's a teenaged couple that comes in every single night and they stay for at least two hours. If I'm in there, they don't even say hello or anything else. They act like they are really cool, and I think that they are a couple of jerks.

I feel like I am the only single person living there. It seems like the people look down on me because of that. Sometimes I feel like someone had spread all kinds of untrue gossips about me. I'm so sick of the ostracizing that I get at my place. It's weird that at where I live, there's more backbiting and cut-throat than at my corporate job! I thought that home is supposed to be a heavenly retreat from the cold cruel world out there. Not at my place!

I hope that you feel better. I hope that I will feel better soon myself. I feel like this whole thing has made me turn other people off. And also I feel like I can't sleep at night. My heart gets racing when I'm almost home from work. Isn't that pathetic?