hi all!

so, im a 20 year old male, bound to be a junior in college, and diagnosed with both depression and ADHD. i currently take Concerta 27 MG which helps with both, but whenever im not medicated, i get INSANELY lonely.

ive been in 7 different relationships, the longest being 7 months, the shortest being 4 months, and i havent been in one for about 2 years now. when im on medication, which i am back on now, im perfectly fine. no problems whatsoever. but about 2 weeks ago i did an experiment on myself and went off of Concerta for 2 weeks after being on it for 5 months to see how i would react, and man did it hit HARD.

loneliness was the ONLY thing i thought about. i was literally obsessed with finding and holding onto a girlfriend. and i would just literally sit in my room all day, find a picture of a pretty girl (emma watson, jane levy, etc) and just stare and cry at it.

like i said, when im medicated im perfectly fine as i should be, but i was curious if anybody else gets like this when theyre "sober" as well? would this be classified as a codependency issue? or just a classic case that i miss being in a relationship?