I'm not hypo-manic, and yes I've read my signature over and over.

I seriously want to flush all my *** **** meds, cancel all appointments and say F' it. If need be just walk away from everything! I know it's not fair to others but I don't care. I really don't care about anything. I want to **** up, I want to crash, I want to destroy everything!!! Everyone can ****ing take care of themselves. What cause this?? Absolutely nothing. I just want to be done with everything.

If I stop meds my pdoc wont let me go back to lamictal, If get sick of un-medicated me.