Hi Shortandcute
I'm not sure if those are symptoms of depression but I wouldn't be surprised. Sooo many things that I thought were just bad qualities are indeed symptoms. As uncomfortable as these occurrences are, this means that they are probably treatable. It isn't "you" it's a manifestation of a disease, a chemical imbalance. For me just knowing that these thoughts and feelings were part of the disease allowed me to lighten up on all the negative self talk. It objectified it a bit weakened it's power.
I went to your bio and you have my respect for having survived all that you have.
Best wishes