Im not sure how to categorize it. When I was a teen and young adult, I felt similar. For me, I think it had to do with desperately needing to be understood by someone. If that someone can give you love and hold you when you feel your lonliest, thats better, but to have this need so strong is unhealthy I think. It puts too much stress on the other person. When you're 'sober', what is your feeling about your self confidence? Is it low? Sometimes we want another person to validate us if we have low self esteem. Getting a girl (or boy) friend seems like the solution but until you feel strong enough in yourself you wont have the kind of happy, successful relationship you're looking for. I wish you the best.