You're most welcome
Are you safe? Not a danger to yourself? The sui thoughts I mean.... Are they still thoughts or plans? because if they are plans you need to tell someone and go somewhere safe.

I'm not medicated either, so its kind of hypocritical for me to say "call your pdoc, get back on your meds", but if you think it would help, then thats a definite suggestion. Meds helped me through a rough time (brother and dad died) but they weren't for me long term...

A therapist would be good I believe, to help you process, grieve and formulate a plan for moving forward.