Hi Boncha
I slept 15 yrs or so in different room than my ex. We are devorsed now.((spelled wrong))
you said "I still love him but just wish I was in love again" thats a biggy
"I have told him many of times that I just want to leave and get it over with"

To me it sounds like you do want out. Maybe you can go back to your family for a bit , give yourself some time..

As you wrote on top post.
"we cant even be in the same room without a huge fight occurring"

Its not worth putting up with that.
I wish you the best