Oh MAN this is SO me. I can completely identify with everything you wrote here...you have described me to the letter. I wish I had an answer for you. It definitely is a good question, as far as if it is learned or not. Maybe not learned, but maybe how we deal with things in the end contributes to the depression. I can definitely agree with the chemical imbalance part too. I think it goes hand in hand. Like if you have the chemicals for a pool to keep it clean, but don't know how to put them in, the pool can't stay clean. (bad analogy I know) I mean, the meds will work on the chemical part, but if our coping skills/self talk is bad, we might as well be dumping tar into the water.

I hope that made sense. I wish it was as easy as changing coping skills/self talk. I hope I don't look like an idiot for saying this, I don't really voice my opinion a lot but you really hit the nail on the head with your post. I am glad you are doing therapy. That is supposed to help too!