It sounds like you haven't had good experiences with therapy. I'm sorry. I feel strongly that you need to feel comfortable with your therapist to make progress. I was in therapy for 16 years with therapists other people chose for me and made very little progress - in some ways even got worse. It wasn't until I worked a long time with my current therapist, that I've been seeing 5 years, that I made progress. My advice to you is to find someone you are comfortable with and feel like you can build a trusting relationship with. Don't expect to trust them right away, just feel them out for a month or so and see if you feel like they understand and are interested in you and won't judge you. I'm praying for you.

Kim