Throughout college and graduate school, school has been my entire life, as I was assuming my future job(s) would be. The problem is, out of the three things I really want to do, none of them are likely to happen, maybe ever. I don't know how to get a "Plan B", i.e. a job that I have no interest in because then I'll have no purpose in life. Like I said, my entire life has been around my aspirations, as it required that level of dedication to even stand a chance. I just can't seeing me working at a random job without feeling dead inside. I already feel dead inside thinking about it and it's difficult to not have suicidal ideation, since as school ends, so does my life (at least in the figurative sense). I don't know how to feel ok with this. I don't know how to really going about achieving Plan A either...and I don't have the emotional strength, support system, or confidence to do anything, and no one can seem to relate/understand.