The last few days have been really hard for me. I have been pretty depressed since Sunday. I blame hormones. But, anyway my best friend and my other friend started poking fun at me like always (we always poke fun at each other)and I tried to hint to them that I didn't like it, but they didnt get the message. I started getting angry. (I never get angry) So I went home later that day feeling extremely upset. I decided that if it continued the next day I would say something more. The next day came around and it continued. While at home, I felt like utter crap. I felt like I just wanted to sleep to get rid of the pain. I also had a quick consideration of cutting. No I do not cut nor have I ever, or ever will. So anyway I texted my best friend asking her to lay off of me because it was making me sad for some horrible reason, and then I became stupid. Ugh, I wish I had an undo button. I told her about my mini urge to cut. She freaked out and told my two other friends and they spent the hour telling me that they loved me. Today at school I knew it would be awkward. My best friend wasnt really talking to me. I knew she was upset and that hurts me so bad. She didnt really talk to me. She seemed to be treating me as that person you know but really only say hi too. It hurts. I see her hanging with my friend treating her like we used to do. I feel neglected. The time that I need her the most she leaves. Is that just her way of dealing with it? By the way I don't feel depressed now. Is our friendship over? Should I talk to her? I need help. Also, I have adhd and depression runs in my family.