Hello Kim,
My feelings about my scars are very similiar to your feelings. When I go to the doctors for a routine check up I am frightened they will see the scars and ask me where I got them cause I am secretly terrified that they will think I am suicidal somehow which I am not. At times I am nervous my hubby will see new scars and know that I have cut more recently then he thought. Sometimes I am proud of my scars like you said kinda like tell tail sounds of a battle that I am mostly surviving. Other times I look at them and am secretly anger that I didn't make them deeper. I too have very mixed feelings about my scars.