Syra:yess that's it!its like she told me I could do something that intially I didn't want to and now she's just ripping it away from me. And wow,I never thought of it like that. I felt so bad when she said she felt like she was only doing and ounce of help for me and felt so small. I really should talk to her about what I want.I have talked to her about my past projection/transference issues but they went away and I'm so angry and hurt by everything right now,I need to disappear for awhile. She is CBT.

Ultra:Thanks for your compassion,that's just it,I did realize I was texting her a lot and said I would try not to text so much but I rarely ever emailed her,not even weekly. And usually only texted her in the moment of panic/suicidal or I practiced one of her techniques.Its so overwhelming and a part of me wishes that I had never let myself open up that much. In my mind,I kinda felt like it was to good to be true. I don't know when and if I'll go back but I def would need to express this at some point.She told me that I don't need her that its always a rollercoster with me and that it never comes down "so she's overwhelmed" that's when I said you're just like everyone else. I've always feared of being abandoned by her,why it took me so long to open up and trust her and now its like nope,I can't deal with you anymore all of a sudden.

Iota:Thanks for your compassion,I don't know why its so sudden either. I will see if I can talk about dependence issues. It just sucks because I kinda feel like I was set up to fail.

Elliemay: Its weird because I trust her and I honestly didn't feel like I was over doing it. I don't know what I did so wrong

I'm at a point now where I just don't want to go,I need time away,to see if I can really be in therapy,be in therapy with her and also I feel like I tried hard not to reach out for her and I did,so now I'm so lost and hurt and this was the worst session ever!!